You’ve come home from work and you’re exhausted. You feel frumpy and ugly. Your hair is a mess and even though you try at times to dress up, your partner never notices anyway.
As you sit down for another evening of watching the telly, you begin to admire the women and their beautiful outfits. Then, just for a moment… your imagination takes over, and you picture yourself enjoying being the feminine goddess that you are, and feeling the appreciation of others.
I used to do this day dreaming often while sitting in my work pants and shirt.
I’d think of the gorgeous purple dress I bought 5 years ago that was sitting in the back of my closet. I wore it to a dinner and then it went straight back into the wardrobe for the next special occasion... which never seemed to arrive.
Why do we do this?
We buy or have beautiful things and leave them in a cupboard for that special day or event. But what ends up happening is that they are stored away forever - never to be seen again!
But I’d had enough of that.
I was tired of waiting and I wanted to celebrate the beautiful things I had bought for myself, instead of keeping them hidden away.
It felt crazy, but I didn't care anymore - I had waited 5 years to pull that dress out again. So I decided to buy myself a photo shoot so I could enjoy and wear that beautiful purple dress. That way I would have a fond memory I could keep forever to continue enjoying that beautiful dress!
When I started to tell some friends what I was going to do, they laughed and said "Don’t be silly you cant do that!". It did make me question myself a little... but you know what, I loved that dress and I wanted to feel special. For far too long I had let go of what was important to me for fear of being judged.
This photo shoot would mark the new chapter of giving myself permission to be me.
The day of the shoot arrived, and of course all the doubts started to come into my head again, telling me that I was I being silly and that this was all some extreme luxury purchase.
So I sat quietly to remember what I really wanted.
I know I needed professional shoots for my website, but too be honest that was a bit of an excuse really.
What I really wanted were photos of me in my dress, because at last I had fallen in love with me again... unconditionally. And I wanted to celebrate that! I had come such a long way, from the depths of unhappiness, that this represented a time when I finally felt free.
I wanted to dress up, be special and have fun by the beach in my beautiful purple dress.
The photographer arrived and my stomach flipped! I was very nervous.
I have never been one for having photos taken and this was a great test to let go of being self-conscious! I was getting all kinds of looks from beach-goers wondering why a lady was in her evening gown in the middle of the day. But, gosh, I had so much fun. And the best bit was that I had no choice but to let go all of my doubts. The photographer was fantastic and she helped me to feel relaxed and comfortable.
In the end, I was in my element and the experience was amazing... true freedom to express being me like I had never felt it before.
So what do you have in the back of your closet?
What is that special something that you have hidden away 'waiting' for that special occasion to come out?
Share with me in the comments what it is, AND what you are going to do right now to enjoy your special something... I look forward to hearing from you!
Enjoy your tea,